Going Without Knowing

Last night I started a devotional that I have had for over two years now. I had never started it for silly reasons. The first is that it is dated and I did not want to start in the middle of the year. The second is that it was a gift from my now ex-boyfriend, the new year started and I despised him and everything he had ever given me. I have since gotten past that hatred and decided that it was time to start. The devotional for today was definitely a relevant topic to my life at the moment. You may not have read it, but I posted last night about goals for the year, one of them being to start the process of completing my associate’s degree.  I started looking on line to figure out what program and essentially which advisor to call. And then I got stuck. I have it down to two different programs, and I don’t know which one would be best. Today’s devotional was all about “going out without knowing.” I, being the type of person that plans everything, am terrified to go without knowing. I know that it is important to trust God. He has a plan and He knows what happens next. I know that He will reveal each step of my life when the time is right. But right now I am scared that I do not know what happens next, since I am so close to completing the classes at Pima Medical. I have decided to give God everything I am and to let Him have full control. It is very difficult to not take that back and try to figure this all out on my own. I trust Him and know that He has great plans for my life. And I seek His guidance as I enter this next chapter in my life. I cannot wait to see what He has in store for me.